sat in my car tonight n journaled for an hour straight and had many revelations. we’re all just humans trying to understand what life means n being self critical n hating urself for experimenting and trying different things isn’t beneficial whatsoever. allowing ur emotions from one day to pour into the next isn’t helpful. when u were younger and had a meltdown at school, what did your teacher say to help you get through it? mine asked me the following: what happened, how did it make you feel and what would u do differently if you could? these questions helped me process what happened and develop a plan on what to do if it happened again. It’s as simple as that. don’t ignore ur feelings. process them, develop a plan on what u could do better and then release them. I’d do this when i was younger and then five minutes later I’d be completely fine playing with my friends again because i let these issues go. they didn’t serve me anymore so i just forgot about them. and it is that easy because we’re still able to do that. we just let our brain tell ourselves that we can’t. nothing is ever that serious that it deserves to dictate ur life for the next five years. nothing. don’t let issues and feelings take the drivers seat. u are in control. check in with yourself. reflect on how u feel n why u feel that way. develop actions and plans. take control back. everything starts with ur mind n ur mindset n how u choose to tackle these things. u r in control. remember that.
holding my own face in my own hands and screaming “there is no connection without an open heart! you must be brave! you must be honest! you must be true!” in the mirror
That feeling when you read a fanfic that’s just right, that’s just what you needed and your entire soul sort of just lights up with the possibilities and miracles the universe has to offer
oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and
just because you don’t look like somebody who you think is attractive doesn’t mean you aren’t attractive. flowers are pretty but so are christmas lights and they look nothing alike
I don’t think anyone could’ve said it in a better way
I reblog these things in the hope that someday I will grow to believe them.
i think if you wanna be loved you cannot shut yourself off to every person trying to know you. you have to open your heart like a little doorway and invite them in thru effort and little offerings of connection
Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
I feel like a lot of people aren’t sure how to deal with people who are psychotic who experience delusions and hallucinations, and don’t know that those delusions or hallucinations aren’t real.
so here’s what I, a psychotic, find most helpful when I’m having a psychotic episode. note that this is geared towards delusions or hallucinations that are frightening the person, not delusions of grandeur and the like.
don’t tell me it’s not real. telling me it’s not real isn’t helpful–my mind is utterly convinced that this hallucination or delusion is real. telling me it’s not will result in, best case scenario, a lot of frustration for you, and in worst case scenario, me freaking out even more and potentially trying to hurt myself.
don’t reinforce the delusions. agreeing there’s a demon in the house or telling me what I need to do to get rid of it is reinforcing the delusion and giving it power, not helping it to go away. don’t play into the delusion either–don’t insert yourself and insist you have magical powers to vanquish the demon, for instance. this will not help. it is my delusion or hallucination, and you do not control it, and trying to is not going to help in the slightest.
ask me what I need to do to feel better. “what would help you to feel better right now?” if I know, I’ll tell you. it might be something ridiculous that’s going to take a lot of cleanup, like pouring salt on the carpet in front of my doorway. let me do it anyway. I need to do it in order to make myself feel better and safe, which is the primary goal in helping someone who’s undergoing a psychotic episode.
if I don’t know what will help, try and just tell me that I’m safe, and that nothing can hurt me while you’re with me. this usually works for me. it may not work for others, but it’s always worth a shot. if you have permission, try touching the person or holding their hand, as this can be a way of grounding them to reality.
if you can and are willing, help me do the thing I think is necessary to stop the monster or whatever from getting me. if I need to salt every doorway in the house, grab some salt and start pouring. yes, it’s going to take a while to clean up, but it’s better than me hurting myself or being paranoid and upset for hours on end.
that’s all that I can really suggest right now. if anyone wants to reblog and add to this, ways that they’ve helped psychotic friends or things that they’ve been told by a psychotic person will help, or things that you as a psychotic person find helpful, please feel free.
